THE HIGHS & THE LOWS

I did warn you from the beginning that I wasn't very good at keeping up with a blog, so I take no responsibility for the fact that I haven't updated for several months. Anyway, I figured I would provide an update for those who were curious as to what I have been up to the last couple of months. Nothing drastic has changed, my major is still Nursing and I am still working for a law office in Boise, though my future prospects have changed.

Boise State is out to drive me to insanity, simply because their Nursing program is absolutely beyond ridiculous. Unfortunately not living in a large city just means that I have limited options to chose from, and I just so happen to live in a city where the program requirements are beyond unreasonable. The bottom line is the fact that I really don't know what my odds are of even getting in. This has been the source of limited amounts of sleep and an enormous amount of wasted energy stressing about it. Not to mention that things in my personal life are kind of up and down at the moment too. I realize that I was getting into this and that I would face a lot of hardship, but I thought I was better prepared.

In order to resolve this really big problem that I can't seem to get over, I have been looking into some options. Though nothing is set in stone, I have an inkling that I will be moving out of state in order to attend a more lenient nursing program. At first, I didn't want to give up on Boise State because they have a very good program, brand new facility, ect. but ultimately, it came down to either retaking classes until I get a 4.0GPA at Boise State an finally apply to MAYBE get it, all the while waiting another two years until I get my degree. By that time I would have been in college for close to 6 years, which makes me cringe at the very thought. I have looked into a couple of schools that have decent programs, and I am mostly focusing my efforts on bigger cities with a wider variety of choices of schools. I have looked into a couple schools in Boston, also New York and Dallas Texas. I haven't come to any definitive conclusions about where I will be when I am doing my clinical nursing stuff, and it definitely will depend on a couple of variables that are changing consistently at the moment, but once those stabilize, it might be moving away from Idaho for a while, at least until I finish my degree and become a certified RN.

As for school, I am doing well. Taking a math class right now that is basically kicking my ass, but I am working hard and learning things that I should have learned in high school and trying to soak it all in. Work is going well, I have been promoted to Subrogation Case Manager/Legal Assistant, (I don't remember if this was anything that was told in previous entries, but somehow I doubt it.) and I am learning a ton and working a lot. I do wish I had a longer break though, I feel the burn out.

It is likely I will be visiting Reno at the end of the month/beginning of August to visit Evan in his hometown, meet his parents, ect. Which will be a really good time. He has seen my stomping grounds, and I have seen where he was living during college, but now I get to see where he spends a lot of the time now, and I get to see him, so that is a big perk!

I just got back from San Francisco with my parents and my grandma, and we had an absolute blast. We got to go to a Giants/Red Sox game with fantastic seats behind third base. We also had some great food and fun experiences. I love that city... it is in my top five of all time favorites alone with Seattle and Chicago. Maybe I will end up around there for the last part of my degree? I get to see Grandma Madsen again in a couple of days considering she and my Aunt Betty are coming up from Salt Lake City for a reunion that has never happened before (last name Lawler) and may not ever happen again. I can't wait to see Grandma and Aunt Betty. It is always fun having them around.

I think that is all for now. Lots of things going on, tired, stressed, busy and ultimately figuring it all out... I'm still young, and I've got time. :)

I'm not afraid to give up or give in

It's the strongest of us

who can fail in the end,

so come on, come on now

give it your best shot.